My journey

First time i thought what i wanted to do in my life was when my teacher asked us what you want to become . One of my friend said "Doctor" .Another said "engineer" . When my turn came i said "nothing " .
This answer was ridiculed every time i said it . But it was true . I never give it much thought . I wanted to flow like water singing :

" हम तो दरिया है हमे मालूम है अपना हुनर ,
जिस तरफ भी मुद गए रास्ता हो जाएगा "


I spend weekend reading comics . In evening i love to walk aimlessly . As an aftereffect of comics most of the time i will be lost in fantasy world . Though it was not like this earlier . When i was in school i used to sing poems .Without meaning , without any theme . I will be singing while roaming in Jungle .

And i have realized that this is what i love . No aim , just wandering here and there. Sometimes it rain .I saw people trying to hide under some shop . I don't understand why people don't enjoy rain .

Sometimes when i get tired , i drink a cup of tea. It is a very different experience .Drinking tea and watching people all around you .Everybody busy in his life . Or watching moon and stars .And i remember

" To enjoy your tea you have to be there "

virtual love

Ashish called me last week. He is in love again .I know it will not take much time , but i was expecting better resistance from him . After all he is a master -level guy .

He was talking to many girls .Last time he told me about a girl who is engaged with some other guy .She was hooked on talking to him and he was enjoying the game. I warned him that he will fall , but he told me that he understand everything now.if only it was true.

The girl told him that she has broken her engagement .Now Ashish started talking to her as friend.slowly slowly he fell again .He proposed her and she accepted.ha ha ha ha...

He knows that there is no future.But he dont want to accept reality .And that is the main problem .If you just want to enjoy , then it is fine.But if you want to escape , you are falling . I told him bare truth .There is no future. He said that they will continue even after marriage .Extramarital relation .He has confidence over himself. I told him that she will forget him after honeymoon.

Mobile and net has changed many thing in our life.We can communicate in a way that was never possible before. It increase our comfort level.It gives false sense of security.But it also gives guys and girls to have affair that nobody will know about except themselves.

I see it as a game . For many people it is true. And both views are right . The problem with being a master-level guy is that you can see truth.You can not hide from yourself.So no worry if you are also in a game , but be aware that it is a game .And like all game it will end .

Our conversation ended with Ashsih saying " Master hone se accha aam aadami hona hai ".So true.

Flowers

When i am not sleeping , only thing that brings smile on my face is flowers and children .I love to see flowers and it reminds me of my childhood.

In Assam , we had lots of marigold of different varieties.There was a wild variety of rose too . And that was my favorite .I wanted a garden full of roses and marigold and i got it when i was in 8th class. We had a new house and as we were at ground floor , i was free to grow whatever i want .

Mummi already had a tulsi just in front of door .I searched everywhere for poppy , rose , guldaudi and other flowers .I used to water them everyday for about half an hour . This was my daily routine .

When i went to Lalbagh last year , everywhere there were flowers and there was a flower show also . Though i was overwhelmed by flowers , i didnt like the flower show .It was artificial and it was hard to enjoy beauty of flowers with thousands of people around you .

True obedience
Silently the flowers speak
to the inner ear