Testimonial to myself

Last night , i thought about giving a testimonial to myself. I was little upset about a incident that is totally unique in my life.I know my life will never be same .But in morning i thought that orkut is not good place to give testimonial to myself.Thats why i am blogging here. It is a short testimonial and the only one which is near to truth .

He is a person who used to live by rules and principles .Then he dropped all rules.Now he has gone wild .No principles in life to live for.

He is a person who never felt attached to anybody .He is a classical loner .Alway prefer to hide his emotions .Want love to rain in his life but always escape from it.He is used to be alone so much that He try to avoid everybody .Each opportunity which can result in some story ,he kills it .

He has no aim in his life .There is no start and no stop .He wants nothing from life .He dont understand the meaning of life.He has left the stage when his mind used to question such things.Now when he is not doing something ,he is lost in dreams.

He dreams about super heroes and cartoons .He can fly and go anywhere .he can fight and win.He can loose. But like his real life , he can not use his power when he needs it .he has to break his dream and change the scenario .He can use his powers only to save others .Others who don't have any names .Others who don't have any face .

Sometimes he dreams about love .He dreams about the girl he love .The girl who don't talk to him.She just smile and he can understand everything .Sometimes she will say a few words and whole day he will be smiling .

Sometimes he dreams about life.Life which he has spent in Assam.He still remember the jungle where he used to play .The play ground where he used to fight .The trees which he has climbed.The tree from which he fell down and got his first fracture. He remembers the school where he first saw others.

He don't know what to say when he meets somebody .He can speak a lot .And he speaks a lot . But he can not communicate. He don't know how to talk to others .How to listen to others.How to understand others.So he just escape and go to his dream world where he don't need to say anything.Where his eyes can say what he can not say.Where he can see the eyes and understand everything.