Death of my loved one - part 1

Two years ago ,something happened in my life which changed a lot of things in my life .I was not able to sleep for some days .Everything I had in my life I lost that day . Since then ,i have seen a lot but when you loose something you loose it.

So what happened that day .?It was a good day . Little cold than usual days . I wake up in the morning .I started my computer . It showed boot error . I thought may be i forget to connect power cable or bus correctly ,so i tried again to connect hard disk . But even after trying for next half hour , i was not able to get past boot error screen.

After spending next 2 hours at my friends computer to check whether it will work there or not and doing all error checking , i realized this :" My hard -disk has crashed " . I know that it has crashed but i refused to believe it for some time . It is law of nature that all hard -disk will crash one day .Still no body thinks that this will happen to his hard -disk .

All softwares , all songs , all games gone in one second . But it was not only for them i was crying .I was crying for my 20 movies that i have stored in my hard - disk . Those movies that i have collected form various pirated CDs and friend's HD . I have stored them safely so that i will watch them when i will have time. For last one year i was collecting movies .Always collecting movies thinking that when i will get time from my studies i will watch them with my friends . But i never got time . All time that i had i spent in collecting movies ,songs ,softwares and games

And what i lost was memories . Memories of my efforts .My collection of songs and software was
something to show others . Whenever a person came to my room .,i always tried to show him all softwares i had , knowing well that he don't know what they are . My hard disk stand for what i was . Now i have lost everything .

I had more than 5000 songs . I have hardly listened half of them .Still i stored them . Why ? Because i can . Because all my friends use to store a lot of songs . I stored songs in various languages . Punjabi , garwhali , tamil ,kumaoni ,bengali etc . Why ? i used to think that one day someone will come to my room and ask me do i have song in this language .And i always wanted to have everything .

I had hundreds of softwares . Most i never used . Some i thought i will use in future .Some i had stopped using .Still i stored them as i did not want to loose them . It was junk for others but for me it was organized .I used to think that one day i will learn flash so i had all flash versions . I had adobe photoshop though i never tried learning it apart from trying to morph aishwarya rai with me .

I had thousands of wallpapers . Wallpapers i have never seen .I know that i will never see them .I will never use them for desktop .Still I stored them . They were collection for me .They stood for my ego .And with crash of my hard disk , my ego crashed .

I spent next two days crying ,thinking and dreaming about hard disk . Every body around me knows that my hard disk has crashed . I don't know how many more days i would have cried if i had not seen this dream .

(To Be Continued )